Each step you take, each breath you make. I make mine too cuz Im Simply In Love With You.

Tuesday, 29 July 2008 @ 2:42 pm

you guys brighten up my day (( 25th july 2008 ))

Yay! At last.

R is permitted to go partying with me.

Thanks daddy R. Hehe (:

its not actually a party with alcohols, lap dance and stuffs like that.

its a A South East CDC Youth Appreciation Party .

Okay? im not a bad girl, u know.

Haha (:

So, monday me and R went shopping for dresses.

Haha. R bought her oh-so gladiator shoes.

i havent buy anything yet. Maybe an LBD will do.

(( little black dress ))

Then, met up with Xin. Thanks for your opinion (:

GOOD NEWS!

A is going to the party too. (:

oh yeah oh oh yeah.

haha. cant wait.

wear formal okay darls??

hehe (: loves.

not in school today.

accompany my sister go polyclinic.

as she was sick. take care sis! haha (:

now doing nothing.

just doing F&N coursework.

ps: you're the best thing that happened to me. thus im not letting you go. (:
you are more than what i expect you to be. you say you will change because of me.
and i hope you wont go back on your words. you promise me. (:

Monday, 28 July 2008 @ 10:52 am

lets rewind back the time to saturday.

yes! i had fun with R.
BUT!
i had to woke up in the morning and head off to Paya Lebar for MFB's meeting.
Celebrated Idayu, Derong birthday and july and august babies!
With a cake, of course. Thanks Jan & Yvfynn (:
had fun with Idayu. Haha. And Xin too lah.
Haha.
Then, i went to E-hub and watch Dark Knight with R.
We walk around E-hub like idiotics. Haha. Like got nothing to.
Bumped into games that we played for free. Haha.
Best best! We ate doughnuts for our late lunch and early dinner. (:
Haha.
Although she was bored as she is not interested but i had my fun.
watching my ex-dead boyfriend in action.
HEATH LEDGER also known as Joker.
haha. yay! (:
Well, i was suppose to meet A that night but it was cancelled.
He just had to WORK. u see. pissed off but its him. So, i cant be mad.
LOVES! (:

yesterday? its the best night i had. Better than 24th July 2008.
Trust me! haha (:
okay. i went to meet R at around 5 plus to get something from her.
We chatted and had our fun. We talked alot! yay!
love you R. (:
then went back home at around 7. I bumped into SuffianDUT in the bus.
he is a nice guy. really.
met up with A and had our fun.
we confessed! and we did some things! (:
Fun Fun!
smiles.

ps: Seeing you kills me. But im glad its over. I hope this will never happen again as i LOVE you and that is all that matters now. You mean alot to me and you know that. Please dont leave me hanging without a string.

You guys must be wondering who is A.
so, here is the Details. Little pieces of him.
Hint 1: He is my sister ex-best friend's brother.
Hint 2: He is chinese.
Hint 3: I have known him for the last two years but never mentioned it to anyone as he had someone else.
Hint 4: met up again, chat, hang out and fell in love. (:

Friday, 25 July 2008 @ 7:01 pm

lets talk about yesterday.
to top it all.
it was my unluckiest day of this year.
2008!
it started off bad but!
wait for it
.
.
.
.
it ended so well.
haha.
CHEESE!

let me see.
i woke up one morning being oh so- clumsy!
forgetting to bring my wallet to school!
LUCKILY, my ez link was in my skirt.
WOW! hahaha.
thanks to R for treating me. thanks babe!
then i was doing a chicken experiment, that went well. yay!
got bad news from A that upsets me = bad luck occurred!
then it went well because i finally got to go studying with my friends.
bad luck again because it RAINS. darn! but ader rahmat sebaliknyer.
smiles.
then it went well because i finally got some alone time with A!
last night was my best night. ever!
loves!

did i miss anything out M,R? (tag me if i do)

today was great. (:
gave a wake up call to A.
and head off to Marine Parade Library to study with R!
then, went to Parkway Parade and we had our lunch there.
we were famished. so, we had...
FRIED KWAY TEOW which is the best food in town. seriously.
haha, PEACE!
back home at 4pm.
maybe going out later to meet A.
can't wait! only to those people who knows about A will know how i feel.
haha.

ps: ill pray as hard as i can to be with you. i hope you will soon realize how much you mean to me.
i wanna be there to support you, motivate you and especially change you. i want the best for you. let me be there for you. (:

i am finally living my dreams in my fantasy world. because i just found you. (:

Wednesday, 23 July 2008 @ 1:43 pm

well, im not in school today.
yup! again. i know.
i keep getting sick this month.
it was just like recently that i got sick.
and now.
aiyoh!
now my headache is getting worser everyday.
its unbearable.
HELP! i need panadols. haha.

well, as mentioned. yesterday was my dearest sister happy birthday.
since im still saving up, i just gave her a treat at MCD. its simple yet its sweet.
haha. me sweet? unbelievable right. i know. haha.

this is it. a cake and some wordings!! nice.

i ask the people to garnish it for me.
credits to MC cafe staffs (:

anyway, just got hot NEWS! (at 2.04pm) . my class won

BEST DRESSED for RACIAL HARMONY DAY!

oh yea. oh oh oh yeah.
haha. congrats yeah.

here is the picture that i promise.
thanks mona!

there are quite a number. didn't i tell you?

haha. this is only abit. but still something.

anw, my dad just got home. and he bought me speakers for my PSP.
thanks daddy.

loves (:

ps: today is a happy happy day. yay.

its the start of something new for me.
and
the world has just gone brighter on me.

Tuesday, 22 July 2008 @ 3:22 pm

hey. i had fun yesterday for the racial harmony day.
yearp. alot of photos are taken.
i was the celebrity of the day! yay!
not only me lahh. the others too.
haha.

enough of me and my words.
let the pictures do the talking.

ps: there is only abit of photos for now. will update soon when i get the photos.

okie??

aites? have fun.

this is only abit. there is alot more than this. trust me. (:

before i go, i just want to wish my sister a really HAPPY BIRTHDAY! may your wishes come true.
and please be a good girl. im tired of reminding you to be that girl. okay? for once, please listen to your more experienced sister. alright? and listen to mummy. please lahh adik. OK? PLUS. dont be easily angry at no/small matters. aites? (: love you. and yes! i still owe you a present. don't worry about that. (: i wont forget. trust me.

loves. muacks! (:

Sunday, 20 July 2008 @ 6:22 pm

i am so stressed out that i slacked the whole day of today.
its bad for me, i know.
but i just need a rest. really.
if i don't, i think ill be growing white hairs soon.
haha.

anyway, i watch like 2 movies in my PSP today.
lying in bed and let the 'precious time' flew by.
don't know what im doing but i choose to believe its good for me.

currently, im trying to catch up with chemistry.
so far, things have gone brighter.
yay me! haha (:

tmrw is myy last racial harmony day.
and ill be wearing cheongsam.
haha. and this would be my first.

will post more pictures soon. aites?

ps: i like you when you start being all nice to me.
but when you are not, you are the last person i want to talk with! period!

Thursday, 17 July 2008 @ 1:37 pm

heyy.
i have been studying lately.
like 2 solid hours of studying everyday.
sometimes more.
thats not me in the past, but it is now.

chemistry is like the hardest subject for me now.
this is because i have not been listening for the past two years.
i have been studying it but not learning it.
if you know what i mean.

everything is changing now.

it has not been the same for me.

life has been hectic and difficult.

it seems like i have not enough time and space.

i cant breathe.

no air no air......

ps: nabila, stop procrastinating.

Tuesday, 15 July 2008 @ 10:46 pm

hey hey.
not much to blog today.
except the part where i think that
'my neighbor like me'. seriously.
since he got hold of my number, he keeps smsing me all day.
not that i find him irritating but he keeps giving me praises.
and not that i dont like it. i do.
maybe just control yourself???
really. what to do?
tell me.

i had my Malay debate today.
my teacher said that there is room for improvement for me. Yay!
since i love talking so much, i think that advise really helped.
THANK YOU MDM CHE' TOM.
i had my listening today. and its cool.
i think ill fair well in this. Yay!
smiles.

went to the library. Had fun with amirah.
chatting (using paper, of course!) and study at the same time (:

got home at about eight thirty.

to readers: please help me answer my question. (through tag board)

"Do you think that i should cut my hair before my graduation night?"

i have some plans for my hair actually.
to keep it till near to my graduation night.
cut & perm.
what do you think?
i don't know.

to someone:
thanks for the advise. it really helped especially when it came from you.
i am sure you will do well too! so, dont give up!
i believe you can.
thanks again. i appreciate it truckloads! (:

to jia de:
thanks for still believing in me. and the encouragement.
it really helped.
i am really sure you can do it too.
so, don't give up my friend.
and thanks for the notes (:
i appreciate it loads.

ps: im sick and tired of you being proud of yourself.
STOP IT! Please. I hope you understand.
Let bygones be bygones, nabila.
LISTEN TO MYSELF.

Monday, 14 July 2008 @ 3:27 pm

today is like so darn funny seyy.
really (:
i left my handphone on my table??
okay, so maybe this is not the thing that you expect it to be funny.

the thing is my friends and I want to leave before Mr.Fathul came in and give his shit about
THE HABITS OF MIND.
so, we decided to leave early. and i hurriedly went out of the classroom not realising that i left my phone on the table.
so, me walking out of the school not noticing anything missing.
i was walking towards the traffic light and decided to reply to the people who last msged me.
then it hits me that i dont have my phone with me.
i was like so panic! its like my wad? 3rd time carelessness.
so, i asked mona to call my phone and she did.
but no one pick up. i asked her to call amirah who is still in school.
she also didnt pick up. by then, fairuz and ramona started laughing and asking me questions about the whereabouts of my handphone.
then (few minutes after interrogating me) they started scolding me and remind me to be CAREFUL.
fairuz pulled her hands out of her pockets and passed me my phone.
haha. then i just laughed and to cut it short...
i reflected on wad had happened while i was in the bus. (:

OMG! chemistry is so hard man. i just cant do it anymore.
i feel that i want to let go my combined science and concentrate on my other subjects.
what do you think? i dont know.
dilemma.

to her:
i messaged you today telling you that i miss you and all. and why doesnt you call me and tells me that you are currently in love with a guy. we always shares things with together. and it hurts me knowing that im not your listening ear anymore. you used to tell me things, secrets, gossips (haha) and everyhing under the sun. from love, family, friends and to personal secrets.
i miss that. From what my eye sees, what my ears heard, the feelings in my heart.. I know you have change. you are not the old you anymore. wad happen? tell me. tell me. i love to know. (:

ps: what i learned today. is to be CAREFUL of my stuffs. check everything before i go. and... treasure the friends that i have right now. and not forgetting that they are the small missing pieces that will always complete our daily life. (: thanks guys!
i feel that i have been used. im like a puppet hanging from a string. controlled by the people who are around me. i feel useless. worthless.

Sunday, 13 July 2008 @ 9:54 pm

haloo haloo.
uhh! i miss blogging.
its been what. 3 days?
haha..

not much happened for the past few days.
just school and tuition!
well, on Friday we had this oral thingy. which is fun.
really. haha.
and today. i just cut my fringe.
guess what? my mum didn't even notice the difference.
weird much.
and today too we make a record.
that actually me and mona went studying. and not SHOPPING like we always do.

anyway, i cant wait for the dark knight to be released.
heath ledger has always been my hero.
YOU ARE ALWAYS REMEMBERED (:
this is the last movie he made and yes, im going to watch it. (:

to amirah, my darl.
CHUCK BASS is just too hot, that even you cant see it.
he blinded you with his HOTNESS baybeh..
and mona. this is for you too. (: believe me.

to ellyna, my juno girl
i encourage you to tell him. even if he rejected you.
u know you have tried your best. i am not telling you this so you could be embarassed
and feel the sadness if he chose not to take you in.
maybe he too felt the same way. u dont know.
if you need someone to talk to, im always here.
imy!

ps: i know i have alot of unrealistic imaginations and somehow im stuck in my fantasy world.
but i just cant help it. it happened when it happens.
You may be out of my sight... but never out of my mind... Thinking of You! (:

Thursday, 10 July 2008 @ 12:50 pm

F&N lesson again.
spending my time on not useful websites.
such as friendster, blog and hotmail.
maybe hotmail is okay. (: since i'll be checking on upcoming events from cdc.
i am now an active volunteer for the cdc.
plus. i'll be getting CIP hours for this. Yay!
smiles.

congratulations FORMOSA! for selling the products well.
sherlin. you did a good job!
we are just left with KEYCHAIN DOLLS.
jia you! we can do it! i am sure we will.
to summer love:
you can do it. we are all as one cohort. make your failure as a motivation to do better.
okay? smiles.

nothing has happened. my life is full of homeworks and studying.
studying? yes. its true. (:
official date for study group. 15th july 2008.
with me. amirah. hakim. suffian.
nice and motivated people to study with.
really.

to gossip girl lovers/addicts. and...
amirah & mona darls.
i LOVE ed westwick! hah!
i think he is the most hottest guy in GG! better than yours. =P
i cant wait for the GOSSIP GIRL season 2. please come out soon!
please preety please.

personal thought:
many things have come and go.
the winds have changed their directions.
and my life has changed for the better.

to: m_____a.
i am sorry that i could not be like those other girls. i am sorry that i couldnt be the girl that you expect me to be. im different. i could not go out anytime i want. its just not me. permissions are needed. you've got to understand. if you cant. then you are just not the one for me. PERIOD!

loves..

Wednesday, 9 July 2008 @ 7:34 pm

it was just yesterday that i blog.
and alot of things have happened.
seriously.

first thing first.
i would like to apologize to people who have been hurt (or angry) since the last entry.
i am sorry. didn't mean to happen this way.
its our last year. i don't want enemies.
really.

update!
school? not much.
almost slept throughout the whole period of chemistry.
almost! so i did not do it.
no MATHS today. no fun.
i love MATHS!!
i have been passing all my maths tests and exams for the first time in my secondary school life.
honest!
credits to Mr. Wan. Thanks!

didn't go to in-focus. because my classmates kinda left after school.
so, me too! haha.
went to Tampines mall instead.
with mona and amirah.
had fun. ate ice cream & takoyaki.
Takoyaki? dont know whether its halal.
so eat first, ask later. hehe (:
then, i went to buy a storybook.
called 'Perfect Strangers' by Robyn Sismen.
just read a few chapters so no verdict yet.
head home. bathe. change and now.

i am missing my bachelor so much.
already? yup.
which? both. (:

PS.
i need someone who loves me with every single beat of his heart, someone who thinks about me constantly, someone who spends every minute of everyday just wondering what im doing, where am i or who im with and whether im okay.
i need someone who can help me reach my dreams and who can protect me from my fears. i need someone who will treat me with respect, and love every part of me especially my flaws. i should be with someone who make me happy, dancing-on-air happy.
This is the man of my dreams. (:

Tuesday, 8 July 2008 @ 3:22 pm

haloo haloo.
sorry for not blogging.
my internet turned me down.
currently, using school computer. hows that for a substitute?

well well.update update.
had my fun on saturday and monday. hang out with my bachelor all day..
not all day. at least half of it.
my bachelor is not that CHUCK BASS. the other one. haha.
reality baby.
but i still have hopes.
sold almost all the products. we are still progressing.
hang on everyone!
endure.

school is like super shit today.
got some bad news from jannah.
really arhs you guys. FUCK OFF.
is it that bad? yes it is!
mind your own business..
we will too. kepish?

other than that, school is school.
homeworks must be done.
secrets are revealed.
friends are lovers.
enemies to friends.

this is all part and parcel of life in school.

PS: Babe, just hang on there? i know you can do it.
jia you! haha..

xoxo.

Thursday, 3 July 2008 @ 12:21 pm

MYY BABY.... HEARTS HIM...

CHUCK BASS. ED WESTWICK. MYY BACHELOR.

@ 12:05 pm

sorry for not blogging lately. busy with school life.
tons of homeworks to finish up. replies for skipping challenge to wait.
so, yarhs. haha.

confessions.. i am a BIG spender. really.
i got $25 for my school. $20 extra..
and i am currently left with $2 plus.
can you believe that? i can't. haha.
spent on cake (a birthday cake), LJS,food, metal keycahin which i really regret and baking stuffs. worth it?
i dont think so.

obsession. my current obsession is ED WESTWICK. aka Chuck Bass in GOSSIP GIRLS.
OMG! i love him so much.. he has this face that i just cant stop staring at. really.
im FALLING for him.

wishes... to meet ED WESTWICK in person.

xoxo.