Each step you take, each breath you make. I make mine too cuz Im Simply In Love With You.

Wednesday, 30 September 2009 @ 3:32 am

i went out with yanne to far east plaza & orchard ion!! had lotsa lotsa fun! ((: there's so much things i bought! i enjoyed the day to the max! till i dont know that i actually spent half of my savings! yes, its goneeee!!! urgh! i bought myself a bag, shoe, blouse and a necklace. one suit oi! hahaha. :) going to wear it for my date this saturday, hahaha, wow wow! since bby said its going to be special, it gotta be nice. right? hehehe (: cannot wait lah sey!

im not going clubbing with nikki today! urgh! well, had some problems with bby! he said i couldnt go, he's not letting me. he explain to me everything, & i finally understood him! LONG STORY! hmm, im so sorry babe! i wish i could go! instead, im meeting with linda & natt to orchard. AGAIN! but at least i can see them uh! hahah (: k lah bye!

toodles!

its almost 6 am yet im not asleep! (:

Monday, 28 September 2009 @ 3:10 am

HAPPY 1 MONTH-SARRY baby! (:

although its just one month, it felt like a year since we've been together. so many things happened. both good and bad & some are purely indescribeable. but i love every moment of it. i swear! (: heheh. & right now, i just cant wait to see you again. yes! its been a week plus. (u win!) LOL! i love you, b! always do & always have.

gosh! im getting mushier by the day! urgh! not me not me!! see lah, got boyfriend, getting softer already! LOL ((: hehehe. anyway, could be going in to s'pore on wednesday! wee~~ cant wait lah! maybe gg clubbing on wed wth nikki! and yes! its my first! (can mummy?) hehehe ((: thurs, gg to jannah's open hse with nikki! and friday! going rayer's outing with the 4ns! wow! its been so long, miss every single one of them! (: hehe (: and saturday! plans with bby! wow! my week are booked! but i like! hehehe. (: woohoo! (:

toodles!

glad everything work out between us. mwah! ((:

Saturday, 26 September 2009 @ 10:25 pm

i feel a whole lot better now, thanks to a few sweet gfs of mine. you know who you are. i love you all. thank you so much. & thanks so much for being there for me. (:

i never think of it that way, i was just being foolish and being stupid. again! lol! i guess from sitting at home too much and doing nothing at home really brings out the worse in me. all i do is think, think and think!! and see where it leads me? negative thoughts! all i need now is some fresh air, my sweet gfs and cigarettes will make me all better. (: to relax my mind, body and soul.

and to my sweet & crazy lil baby gundu, im sorry if i ever doubted you. im sorry i never trusted you. im sorry i never believe u. u told me to trust you, but i didnt even give it a lil try. i admit i was wrong. all those times u said those three words & eight letters, and all i reply you was okay. im sorry.. i guess i just wasnt ready to say it to you. like to your face, maybe not yet. you are sweet for not leaving me, you are too kind to be angry with me everytime i said okay, to be with me, you are being patience and to endure my stupid and unnecessary lil tantrums, you are being crazy. hehehe. (: for that...

i promise to you this, on 3rd october 2009.

i will take your hand in mine, and you will turn to look at me, i will look into your eyes, bring your face closer to mine and ill whisper those those three simple yet meaningful words to your ears.

'baby, eventhough i didnt say it to you but it doesnt mean i dont. i always have and always will love you. i love you sayang.'

@ 3:41 am

'i was crying, but no one was there to wipe my tears'

'im finally giving up

i guess this it

im on the verge of breaking down

im tired of plastering a fake smile'

Thursday, 24 September 2009 @ 1:59 am

'If loving you takes a long time, can i just stop loving you?

Because i'm simply afraid of falling in love again

If its heartache i keep getting.

Then i guess i should stop falling in love at all'.

Right? ):

Tuesday, 22 September 2009 @ 8:51 pm

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL.
both days of rayer has been awesome for me. apart from the fact that every year the money is the same. no less no more. but this year, the bond between cousins has been so so much better than those other years. we're much closer to my daddy's side of the family which never happens before. yup! i know! pfftt!

right now, im just alone at this big house. with nothing to do, cuz im done watching GOSSIP GIRL season 3. i cant even text baby cuz my m'sia prepaid has run out of credits. LOL! hahaha. and no fun people is actually online now. let the mugging begins....... -_-

toodles! (:

Wednesday, 16 September 2009 @ 8:50 pm

i love them!!!

my newly pierced ears! ouch!!

just me and my headphones otw to ayer hitam!

a day out with cousin to geylang! weee~~~

break-fast with cousin/sister at m'sia pizzahut!

on mummy's birthday 040909

me and my sis otw to ayer hitam! haha. LOL!

waiting for my dad to finish werk!
when boredom strikes! ((:

break-fast with baby P1

at KFC with bby P2

just me lah! (:

and more of me! ((: weeee~~~

so yeah, i finally did my piercings today! but unfortunately, i can only do 2.. urgh! ill continue my mission when im back in singapore! teehee ;) well, i get to meet baby today. he's such a sweetheart to accompany me all the way to woodlands just to meet my cousin & go back JB. i LOVE you. i guess everything has went smoothly these days. i like! finally got my baju raya! and its PURPLE!! i want it red!!! boohoo! ): and now im bored cuz im done with cleaning, facebook-ing, and basically watch tv. i guess it leaves me with me and my music!! booooo!

well, rayer is coming and trust me when i said i just dont feel the heat of it. not even abit. am i just too old for this or the feeling is just not there anymore??? u tell me. im trying to keep this in mind..

'life is not too short for rayer!!'

at least im looking forward to the money and of course! meeting my cousins lah. teehee ;)
hahaha. OK! thats just lame. i kinda miss my ITE mates and SEC SCH bitches! i guess i have to meet them after rayer uh! and ayysbby, where'd u go? i miss u lah seyy!!!. ):

oh yarhs!! i so wanna watch GOSSIP GIRL S3!!!
i think im just going to wait for the whole season to finish and im SO SO buying the dvds.

oh yeah! (:

and and i love chuck bass.

xoxo ((:

Sunday, 13 September 2009 @ 1:11 am

a hell lots of stuffs happened in this one week.. some are good, some are bad and some are just indescribeable. i have been spending alot of my time with my baby boy. teehee. (: he has been the sweetest. taking his time off just to meet me. although he's busy with 'stuffs'. thks sayang. love you!! so baby decided to change our date to 170809. he said the previous one is just not nice. not worth remembering. well, i have to agree. so now its 170809. haha.

in a nutshell, everything has been alright. things are finally falling back into place. daddy has been the sweetest, finally he bought me the headphones. which i wanted it so much. the onto headphones and its pink!! special edition oi! hehehe (: thks daddy. and and finally i get to buy ciggies from malaysia and it only costs me what? RM9? how cheap is that. i guess ill start buying more from here. hahah LOL!

mummy has nagging about lots of stuffs. blame it on hari rayer and menopause. haha (: finally i told my mum about me having a job, and she agrees! yay! but but with one condition. half of my pay goes to her. and guess what? i agreed to it. hmm, so.. im going to get my ears pierce friday. woohoo!! cant wait. i hope i can do all 5 piercings at the same time. wish me luck?? pray for me.. muahahah. ((:

OKAY! bye..

Wednesday, 9 September 2009 @ 12:26 am

I HATE IT!!! i hate life to be precise. i just dont like it if things dont go my way. but WTH? who does? u tell me. im having my holidays, so let me just have a little fun.. i wanna go out, have fun and let me *insert any vulgar word* live a little. ive been tolerating with you since the day i know ALL your *insert any vulgar word* dirty lil secrets. what
you have done to my family. u think i like u now? NO! NEVER!! i regret being nice to you, being such an angel infront of you. so u wont feel how much my family hates you. but just now, u just blew it.. BLEW IT!!

right now, all im thinking is how much i regret living in JB. sucks to the core man! it really screw my life up. AARRGGH!! living here is so much better.. with my friends around me and its much easier for me to get around. gawd!! why must my life turns out this way? i just wish i could turn back time. and back to where i was before all this. please somebody. i just wish everything would work out. i wanna talk to my parents about this. wish me luck pple?

spend time with baby yesterday, instead of studying. so naturally, i blew off my POA paper. and my BZE too. gyeah, im basically screwed and dead. just wait for my results which will show a huge F on it. just wait for it.. hmm.. so baby and i talked alot yesterday. basically about our past, present and the future. baby, i really need you to trust me on this. ok bby? i love you.. i really mean it this time.((:

Wednesday, 2 September 2009 @ 9:03 pm

AVA GARDNER.. i just love how her eyes speaks a thousand chapters of what she goes thru in life. yes, she maybe a hollywood superstar & have all the money in the world. and every effing thing on what people like us yearns for. but she is still a human being. just like us. who goes through every hardships just like us. i know its random but i just admire her.. alot. ((:

okay, truth to be told. im missing my baby so much. didnt text him for days already. all because he's in camp now.. & i was being a part time malaysian. HAIYO!!!! he's booking out on friday but still i cant see him. im meeting him next friday, i guess.. aarrgghh!! cannot lahh like this.. so loooonnggg!!! be patience, nabila. hahaha. (: baby's BMT is ending next week, then i can see him all i want.. yay yay!! ((: hahaha. at least for a week.. hmm...

okay, i was not in school today. due to my laziness & not being punctual.. i know its a bad habit and all. but i dont think i can change yet, at least not so soon.. hmm.. i think i need professional help lah. hahaha. (: okok.. *too dramatic.. i know i know.. && exams are next week and i havent start a thing. not a single page i read or do any of those revisions. im being my usual self.. a big time PROCRASTINATOR.. i have to start soon. i miss my role play today, doing it tmrw. wish me luck? & i dont even know the script.. HELP!!

toodles! (:

Tuesday, 1 September 2009 @ 1:31 pm

Bellabby! (: hahah.

me and my bby.. <3

bellabby and monadarls

bellabby & fairuzhuns!

the souls that always brighten up my day (:

yesterday was awesome! i finally get to see my babes/bitches. hahah. (: i was referring to my secondary school mates. urgh! i miss them all already. pls meet up again soon, gyeah? (: again! i went to another outing where there are missing pple.. INCOMPLETE outing! though not all was there yesterday. i understand some have school and such.. but it was still fun. cam-whored through the day at T1 rooftop.. (: yeah! i visited my secondary school, meet some teachers. shocked that many are not there already. hmm.. watched the concert which was alright for me.. (:

then i went off to meet my baby at 5.. went to East coast, hang around there for a lil while till buka time, we talk and laugh. and off we go to simpang bedok cuz baby craves for mutton chop. & i ended up eating maggi goreng chicken. which i didnt finish it. teehee & thks baby for the treat. (: after that, went back to East coast and hang around there. i know.. AGAIN?! till 9 plus. hahaha.

meet my sis at GEYLANG and off we went back home to JB. alot of stuffs happened yesterday which was bitter-sweet for me. some of them are nice remembering, some of them are not worth knowing. but baby, no matter what. i still do very much love you. (:

toodles!

i love you, i really do.