Each step you take, each breath you make. I make mine too cuz Im Simply In Love With You.

Sunday, 27 December 2009 @ 2:05 am

my week has been awesome! so my holidays weren't so bad after all. it all starts after seesha outing with my beloved gfs on 17 dec, celebrating faifai birthday. then a sleepover at mona's hse. our first since like what 6 years??? haha. (: then it was TPS discussion all the way with ayys for a few days. then my cousin and i watched SANTAU, a malay horror movie. and lemme tell u, it was frigging scary! its really goood. my first malay horror movie watched in the cinema. wooo! and and i had lotsa fun with linda and ayys at the esplanade. played 'confession scissors paper stone' which includes slapping. & note to self: watch out for linda's slap! =P thursday was spent beautifully with my B A B Y! ^_^ sssshhhhhh! friday, i did some cleaning the house. and saturday, watched AVATAR! with mummy&baby&yanee&ariff(yanee's bf). the movie was WOW WOW WOW!! i loike! * i see you* heheh.

P/S: 8 months is long, but deep down i know that we are going to get through it together just fine. as long as you love me, and i love you. and with a lil bit of faith, we are going to be alright. i just know it baby. 4 months may seem short, but my love for you can never be compared with just 4 months. its definitely more than that. hmmm. (:

i miss you

Sunday, 13 December 2009 @ 4:06 pm

geez! i didnt even know that i can miss you this much. the thought of you being miles and miles away from me makes me miss you even more. it makes me yearn for your touch on my skin. the chill that run down my spine everytime i feel you breathing on my neck. the sound of your voice whispering in my ear saying ' i love you '. the kisses on my cheeks and my forehead before you send me off. those tight hugs you love to do. the licks on my right hand while we're holding hands.

everytime i recalled these lil things we do, it makes me smile. i realize now how much i need your presence in my life, it also change me to learn to treasure every moment we had together. yes, its short. and yes i might throw tantrums at you randomly everytime i knew the night is going to end. * p/s : im sorry! ;) * but i learn to appreciate you more.

* the distance is what makes the heart grow fonder (: well said bby. . .

HAPPY !

Saturday, 12 December 2009 @ 11:49 pm

the holiday i went recently wasnt the best one ive had so far. was one of the worse. i didnt get to shop for anything at all. NADA ! ! urgh -_- we went to KL on thurs and genting the day after. and we ended our holiday one day earlier. which is today, last stop at malacca before we head back home in JB. pfftt. the only memories ive taken home from this holiday were wearing the sweater my bby bought for me for my birthday ( see last pic ) and buying that beanie. thats it! hmp. nevertheless, i get to spend some quality time with my nieces! its been so so so so long. and i missed them. long story cut short, family problems. =/

anyway, i missing my b's from sch. ayys, linda and natt! and mona too! not forgetting. .obviously, my biggest b of all. my saaaaayang saaayang! chey! it has only been days but the missing is killing me mayn. not literally lah, emotionally. hahaha. dont know when i get to see his gundu face again ;) , hear his funny 'malaysian' accent he does, the hugs, the kisses and when i finally get to spend time with him. . aaarggh! i miss all of this. :(

ps: i miss my cute & crazy BIG teddy bear! hmmmm. .

Sunday, 6 December 2009 @ 9:57 pm

ohmygod! i feel so sick today. like i was having a fever. well, i cleaned up my house and did some packing for my trip to genting. i know! again! hahah. we'll be going off on thurs till sunday. i think. & yes! ill be skipping 2 days of school. but what the hell. the holidays are almost here, might as well push it earlier. right? ;)

this week was great! exams are finally over. phew! haha, did my roleplay with aishah. and i really think it was more to comedy than showing off good customer service. hahah. baby and i went to the movies and had my first B&J's ice cream (yummy!) on friday. we watched 'ZOMBIELAND!'. and lemme tell you. it was hilarious! a really funny show. apparently, there are rules on how to protect yourselves from the zombies & oh! poor bill murray! ;)

* ive been thinking alot lately. whether all this are worth it or is it not. im not sure of myself. ive been having these doubts that im not really sure what they are. i get worried easily. i get angry easily. i get all moody so easily too. but i dont know why. i dont know whether what im going thru right now made me change the way i am. and the way things are, the way i think. its as if im not myself anymore. its hidden somewhere inside me. im not sure whats right or wrong. i dont think im in the right state of mind. pffttt -_- im trying not to think about it and pretend that it was me being paranoid, i did. but its not working. i wanna be alone for awhile. i just wanna think straight ! i just want to be away. hmmm =/ the upcoming holidays might be a good alone - time for me.

to: my dearest hyprocrites

ive known you people for 18 fucking years of my life. never once i regret knowing you guys. never! you guys are the closest to me, and it meant alot to me. the other reason might be cuz blood runs in the veins. so i dont really have a choice. but knowing you guys have make me realize what a lying, backstabbing bitches you guys are. never fails to bud in other people's life. cuz thats what you guys are good at. never fails to break a promise. never know the true meaning of what secret is. i trusted u, and this is what i deserve. my mum is right, i should never trust them. it was my mistake. i guess i just wanted to prove her wrong, just wanted to prove her that u are not what u are. guess i was wrong. tried so hard for trying. and its all gone to waste. from this day forward, you guys are not a part of me anymore. u guys mean absolutely nothing to me. PERIOD!