this week was great! exams are finally over. phew! haha, did my roleplay with aishah. and i really think it was more to comedy than showing off good customer service. hahah. baby and i went to the movies and had my first B&J's ice cream (yummy!) on friday. we watched 'ZOMBIELAND!'. and lemme tell you. it was hilarious! a really funny show. apparently, there are rules on how to protect yourselves from the zombies & oh! poor bill murray! ;)

* ive been thinking alot lately. whether all this are worth it or is it not. im not sure of myself. ive been having these doubts that im not really sure what they are. i get worried easily. i get angry easily. i get all moody so easily too. but i dont know why. i dont know whether what im going thru right now made me change the way i am. and the way things are, the way i think. its as if im not myself anymore. its hidden somewhere inside me. im not sure whats right or wrong. i dont think im in the right state of mind. pffttt -_- im trying not to think about it and pretend that it was me being paranoid, i did. but its not working. i wanna be alone for awhile. i just wanna think straight ! i just want to be away. hmmm =/ the upcoming holidays might be a good alone - time for me.

to: my dearest hyprocrites

ive known you people for 18 fucking years of my life. never once i regret knowing you guys. never! you guys are the closest to me, and it meant alot to me. the other reason might be cuz blood runs in the veins. so i dont really have a choice. but knowing you guys have make me realize what a lying, backstabbing bitches you guys are. never fails to bud in other people's life. cuz thats what you guys are good at. never fails to break a promise. never know the true meaning of what secret is. i trusted u, and this is what i deserve. my mum is right, i should never trust them. it was my mistake. i guess i just wanted to prove her wrong, just wanted to prove her that u are not what u are. guess i was wrong. tried so hard for trying. and its all gone to waste. from this day forward, you guys are not a part of me anymore. u guys mean absolutely nothing to me. PERIOD!